Friday, November 28, 2008

Down

I'm not really sure how to even start.

Earlier this summer, we discovered that my dad's prostate cancer was getting worse. There are only so many treatment options available, and he is on the last option before chemo becomes necessary. The doctor gave him new meds that are supposed to supplement this hormone treatment he's been taking for the past few years with the hope that it would be kind of like a booster to the hormone therapy.

My dad has decided to stop taking the new meds. He's done.

The side effects of the new meds were hard for him. He looks terrible. He has hives from head-to-toe. He spends most of his time dozing off in the chair in front of the television. His quality of life has really gone down since he started taking the meds. So I get it. I really do.

It doesn't make it any easier, though. Now we just watch. And wait.

I just want my daddy to be better. And I know it's not possible.

It's hard.

9 comments:

joansy said...

I'm very sorry. I know it's incredibly hard to watch. I hope he feels better without the meds.

Wishing you peace and sending my love . . .

Gretchen said...

I don't even know what to say. I'm so sorry.

MPPs Mom said...

hugs, hugs, and more gigantic xtina hugs

Lori said...

I can't add a single thing. I'm so sorry.

MamaMaven said...

I am so sorry. Hugs to you and the family.

Esmerelda said...

{{hugs}}

and prayers...

and hugs...

and prayers...

{{hugs}}

Tree said...

I am so very sad to read this. I am thinking of you and your family.

g-man said...

Hug.

MarciaAnn said...

it is very hard to watch the deterioration ... visit him as much as you can. I wish I had done that instead of being scared and optimistic that mine would recover - different circumstances, but if I had it all to do over again, I'd have been there more for him, even though my dad wouldn't have known the difference. Chin up and all, allow the feelings to wash over you and when they run their course, dab your eyes and get on with the dailies.

Odd that the word verification is fulasess (full assess)